Pattison on Wheels

Monday, February 18, 2008

Panga!

1-17-08
With my morning shower I got to chatting with Russ, the gringo (who spoke as if he were the handyman but turned out to be at least a manager but probably the owner) at the restaurant/kayak rental/etc. at the campground. I mentioned that I like to photograph birds in flight. I’m always a little unsure when I say that. Not because it’s untrue. I just wonder how odd it might sound. Anyway, he said we should go out in his panga (big boat). Maybe tomorrow. I was enthusiastic. The more he thought about it the more he came to know that he himself wanted to go out right now. So we did. Great shooting of frigate and other birds. We also had the privilege of hanging out with a pod of dolphins for about half an hour.

The GPS, though it doesn’t have maps for Mexico said I am at N 26 45’ 57” and W 111 53’ 9”. I think that is right. It also said I am around 20 feet below sea level. I think that may be in error.

In the afternoon I took a long walk out on a rock and cactus covered point. Good exercise. I’m OK just hanging out for a while. I have to admit, idyllic as it all is, when I am alone and free to feel anything I want, I experience fear and sadness. So be it. Accepted without comment.

This one failed to upload in sequence so I'm going to squeeze it in here.
2-18-08
I got up around 6am because I made the mistake of looking out over Bahia Conception. It was too beautiful to resist so I got up, bundled up, and set up the camera to capture the soft, rosy-fingered dawn reflected on the smooth water. I bought some eggs from a vendor that comes by the beach and had a nice breakfast of perfect 3 minute eggs.

Today was difficult. I wasn’t pleased with myself. I couldn’t find healthy road food in town and the Internet connection at the cafe didn’t work well for me. I expressed frustration and the owner took it personally and tried to refuse payment. The AA meeting that was supposed to happen didn’t, or at least not where I thought it was supposed to be. I took it personally and was feeling angry so I took a long walk on the beach in the glorious sunset. I felt better and slept well. I awoke with a novel feeling of just relaxing and letting myself feel and be who I am without the constant tension of judging and covering myself. I could feel the edge of that new territory. It felt good.

5 Comments:

  • Pat,

    Your Frigate looks alot like a Swallow Tail Kite. If it has a wingspan of upwards of 7-8 feet it is the former (juveniles may have the white head). If the wingspan is 3-4 feet it may be a kite.

    I didn't know what frigate birds were, so I'm learning from your trip...Thanks much.

    Peace,
    brian

    By Blogger BRIAN, At February 18, 2008 11:11 PM  

  • Pat,

    It is definitely a Magnificent Frigatebird, juvenile female.

    Great shot!

    bri

    By Blogger BRIAN, At February 18, 2008 11:18 PM  

  • I find that idyllic often makes me sad and lonely, with or without people. There is a sense of loss perhaps, knowing I cant hold this beauty forever and I become deeply aware of being on a planet and therefore overcome. Still, with dolphins, I cant help laughing. They are divine in the truest sense of the word (one definition of divine -excellent in the highest degree; supremely admirable. That's a dolphin for ya. Love, H

    By Anonymous Anonymous, At February 18, 2008 11:30 PM  

  • Hello Friend,
    Allison pointed me here.
    I appreciate the openness of your disclosures and your understated statements.

    Cultivating the ability to be ok with not being ok. Or not. Which of course is ok.

    When I was 21 I walked down the mountains of Baja solo. I came out and visited the beach a few times that winter. Once was on a beach just South of Mulege.

    I have a soft spot for you Pat and it delights me knowing that you are doing this.

    Love,
    Mark G.

    By Blogger Mark, At February 18, 2008 11:34 PM  

  • Note to Pat:

    Wednesday evening from 7pm - 10pm there will be a total lunar eclipse the last to be visible in the western hemisphere until 2010.
    Rain and clouds are predicted for northern california so we won't see it.

    brian

    By Blogger BRIAN, At February 19, 2008 6:11 PM  

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